Ameeeeeeeeey ♥

Saturday, November 28, 2009

Lol , i have the 'WEEEE ~ IM SO HAPPY *BIG BIG GRIN*' look in both pictures , hahaha !

right Ica ? okay im not in the right mood , to update my blog properly ,
i feel like dying right now btw :(
lol drama queen *rolls eyes* .

Monday, November 23, 2009

I'm updating cause Ryann ask me to hehe !
heh , i finally got a job @ The Coffee Club at Wheelock ,
but i had to reject it cause turns out that they sell pork there ,
and therefore i cant work there , sad :(
great right ? i finally got a job , and then the place not halal , fcuk seh !
okay whatever , gonna pray that one of the many jobs i interviewed for gonna call me back !
okay ciaoz ! :D

Thursday, November 19, 2009

Sometimes I wish I'm not that disposable ,
like a kleenex people blow their nose into and throw ,
cause I'm tired of people forgetting about me .
Everybody moves on with their life , with their new friends & their new school ,
and then they forget bout their plain old Ami :(

Sometimes I wonder , why do I still bother to care bout them .
Yeah all of us have our own lives to live , we moved on , but i dont understand why ,
I can be the one who always have time to stop and listen to all your cries ,
but none of you can do that for me ?

Everybody stop pointing your bloody fingers at everyone ,
stop calling each other hypocrites and two-faced bitches ,
cause you'll end up having three fingers pointing back at you .
Everybody do this kinda shit ,
and I'm sick of it .

If this is what they call friendship ,
then I rather not have friends , cause at the end of the day ,
I'll still end up being alone .

Don't make promises , the people i call bestfriends ,
if you dont even bother remembering them .
Just F Off !

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Me & Huda went for Job-Hunting part 2 today , and we're very very very tired .
And now we just have to wait till someone calls us back . Bottomline , we both need a job like really badly cause we're very bored and we have alot of free time till April - if we get into a school , and also because we need money to sustain us until then , and i really have not that much left . Other then that , i think like other girls , im itching to have money in my pockets to go the things i have my eyes on . But thats not so important , i think . Okay i just need something to distract myself so that i wont worry bout my 'O' Level results .

Okay whatever , im very tired , i need to go shower & im off to bed :D

Saturday, November 14, 2009

I did pretty much nothing for the past 3 days , and its kinda depressing :(
lol no I'm not emo-ing and thinking depressing thoughts again , its just depressing that I've been longing for Os to end , and now when it has , i got nothing to do . sedih !
I got so bored i started playing facebook games , and I'm not a big fan of facebook games cause its laggy ,
but now I'm currently playing 3 facebook games , lol pathetic !
okay i really need to go find a job , and i will , this coming Monday , with Huda again .
i don't really have anything to update , cause I've been up to .. nothing lately :(
so take care :)

Thursday, November 12, 2009

Found this on Lynn's blog just now ;

Have you ever felt that feeling whenever you see someone, you freeze and your heart starts to beat so fast and you have to hold on to something so you wouldn't fall? Sometimes when they talk to you, do you utter stupid words and end up embarrassing yourself? It’s not that you want it, but just the presence of that person makes your heart beat faster and slower at the same time. Would you be brave and admit your feelings? What if it’s simply not meant to be, do you give up? Or keep trying and end up with nothing? Well, that’s love. Its irony speaks, but you got to take risks to get answers. When you meet someone and you gradually fall in love with that person, try to express your love to her because every moment you wasted would be equal to tons of regret in the end. Don’t wait until it’s too late to tell someone how much you love, how much you care. Because when they are gone, no matter how loud you shout and cry they won’t hear you anymore.

The love you can’t have lasts the longest, feels the strongest and hurts the most. It’s so hard pretending to be friends with someone special when every time you look at that person it just hurts even more knowing that all you see is ultimately everything that you want but you can’t have. Isn’t it stupid when you say, “no, I don’t love that person anymore.” But still, when the memories are refresh and that person become visible again in your life. You’ll stare and say, “Damn it! Why can’t I forget you?” So each time I see you, I say to myself, “I moved on.” Each time you smile at me, I say to myself, “yeah, we're just friends!” But every time you look at me, I end up saying, “Shit! It’s so hard to pretend!” It’s hard to love someone who is not serious enough. Time would give you chances to talk, chances to be together and chances to share. See how it hurts?! You only have chances, just chances.

A heartbreak isn’t as loud as a bomb exploding. Sometimes it can be as quiet as a feather falling and the most painful thing is no one really hears it except you. You can handle the pain that you feel and make others believe that you can move on. But you can never deny the truth to yourself that the person who failed and hurt you is still the person you’ll choose to love. I cried so many times because of a love lost and a love I never really had. I suffered pain worse than dying. But feelings change and there’s one lesson that everybody should learn in time…move on. You can’t finish a book without closing its chapters. If you want to move on, then you have to leave the past as you turn the pages. Love is not destroyed by a single failure or won by a single caress. It’s a lifetime venture in which we are always learning, discovering and growing. The greatest irony of love is letting go when you need to hold on and holding on when you need to let go. We lose someone we love only when we are destined to find someone else who can love us even more than we can love ourselves. Learn to appreciate the rainbow after cursing the rain. It’s just like loving again after experiencing pain. Loving someone can’t be proven with just the way you feel, the words you say or the things you give. If you’ve ignored yourself and sacrificed your own happiness for the one you love, you know what love means.

^^^ Isn't this nice ? The next time , I suffer a heartbreak , I promise I'll remember this .
But i really hope i wont ever need to .

& Sufyan promised to call me tomorrow ! Yay-ness :D

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Today was the last day for Os , and im supposed to feel ecstatic that im free from Maths and Science and studying altogether until i enroll into a school next year , but i dont feel that way at all , sedih or what ? I dont feel the expected feeling of the burden being lifted off and i dont know why . Maybe because i still have to worry about results thats gonna be released in almost 2 months . It didnt feel the same like last year , when i could just throw my books aside and start going somewhat crazy , maybe because its my second try and im even more nervous . Okay to summarise , im just scared . What if i dont do well ? :(

On a lighter note , spend 4 hours outside today job-hunting with Huda ! Tiring i tell you , my legs and back hurts really badly now . Badly need someone with a kind heart to give me a massage hahaha ! Of all jobs that i applied for , i really want the barista job at Starbucks ! cause i'll be working with coffee , & i looooooooove coffee , Starbucks's especially ! whatever it is , i did walk around and tried to look for jobs , so Alhamdullilah if i do get one :D After thinking about it , im in no rush to start working cause i wanna have more days to laze around at home ! :D

Okay im tired & hungry .
gonna eat , shower , read abit and off to bed !
Night-night world ! :D

EDITED //

Happy 18th Birthday Nataline ! :D
okay now good night .

Okay i know i said i dont want to blog again , but then i decided that i want to blog again ,
because i feel that its like so wasted for me to delete away my 3-4year old blog & also because i have itchy fingers wanna start blogging again , im so fickle-minded . Boyfie i put up my archives there <<< see see , dont read back on all my kentalan posts and laugh and tease me after that , i'll bite you ah !

Went out with Boyfie today , yes i really did have fun , even though no ice-cream & no photos ! *pouty dog face* I had fun cause i was with you , & im so grateful for that , i wont ask for more :D after movie , Jennifer's Body which was shitty btw , and brunch (for me atleast , i think) we headed back to Capitol to get back my books from Chris , and coincidently , all the others - Lina , Aslam , Lulu , Fie - came back too cause it was Ah Cheong's last day :( now i dont know where to go find him to ask for Starbucks :( played tap-tap revolution with Lina just now , extremely fun & i won !!, will download it soon ! cant wait cant wait :D

& i should be studying now for the last dreaded paper tmr , but here i am blogging after spending bout an hour changing my blogskin to something simple & sweet yet again . im looking forward to meeting Huda tmr for jobhunting :D should have went out and do that long time ago , cause atleast i know by now i would be employed by some random company already .
ive been to the gym to burn all my fats , but i think its no use if i exercise like crazy , and then go home/out and eat all those fatty food , waste effort only :(

i think im gonna post a wishlist or something soon , yay !

okay i should go study and head to bed soon :D
night-night world !