Ameeeeeeeeey ♥

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

hello , im back from work ,
and ah , its the same old thing everyday ,
so not gonna elaborate .
and i dont feel good , i dont want to work ,
i wanna sleep at home and sleep like a pig till i think ive got enough rest .
and i wanna sit at home and read , and change my blogskin , and
do the things i should do during my hols ..
i wanted to find a dance group so that during the hols i wont stop ,
and get all rusty when i start again . hahas , but then didnt get the chance to go find .
or form or get recruited into . i wanted to do nothing all day but watch tv ,
eat , laze around during the hols , but i chose to kill time by working and at the
same time gain experience . i wanna watch alot of movies but cant find the time
and companion to go watch them with .
ahs , so gonna get Nisa to watch movies with me , and also out to get clothes !
super bored with wardrobe , i want to get new stuff .
and pretty much very soon gonna cut my hair also , cant wait-cant wait .
and and i miss Ryyyyy ! and Capitol's Staffs , and my friends like Ish and Sufyan
& most importantly Farah . ive been promising her that i'll meet her up soon
and also visit the malay dancers at practise , but just couldnt find the time to .
and there was even once , i forgot i was free and then remembered only at night that
i could have gone visit them then sit and rot at home .
ouh ya , thank you Andy :D for the panadol ,
appreciate it alot .
i wanna meet my Rvps Clique ! can someone plan something ?
im bored and i think i should go to sleep , kay kay ,
bye .

Monday, December 29, 2008

hello .
had a bad day at work yesterday as i was feeling very tired
due to lack of sleep and also bcoz its the time of the month that i'll get
unreasonably cranky . other than that , the restaurant was never empty ,
was busy through out the day , and kinda got pissed with some
of the customers who think theyre royalties . hah .
tired to sleep during break yesterday but failed cause Suresh keep coming into
the VIP room with cakes and drinks for me . hahas . and also bcoz Avril Lavigne
was playing on the stereo and it kinda made me wanna sing or rather slow dance along .
went back home , and slept early , and felt a little better , fresher today .
and me & Ry came in to work late . i didnt wear my uniform to work just now cause my uniform dirty and my other uniform was with Ry didnt wear work shoes either , went out of my house
around 11am , walk all the way to Lrt station and then realised i didnt bring my work shoes ,
so walk all the way back , complete waste of time . haha !
and work is definitely better today cause its a Sunday ! which means theres not much
people dining in .
& SARA FED ME ICE-CREAM JUST NOW !
im his pampered baby sister :D
and and and , i chatted on the phone with Sufyan Bestie two days ago ,
kinda miss him alot and was surprise he started texting me cause i thought he forgot bout me .
other than that , talk alot bout whats been going in our life since we last met .
and Yan , pls breakup with ure mia girlfriend bfore u start chasing another young and
innocent girl . & thnks for believing that i can pass my Os , and also
for ure indirect compliments . meet up soon okay ?
and i wanna read my books ! cousin stayed over for only 3days and she already finished reading
3 of my books . no fair . i wanna read .
& it was Ish's sister bday yest , on the 28th . so ,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAK AIN ! :D
bye .

Saturday, December 27, 2008

i miss my cousins lah ^^^

I was losing myself to somebody else
But now I see
I don't wanna pretend
So this is the end of you and me
Cause the girl that you want
She was tearing us apart
cause she's everything
Everything I'm not

hello ! i just came back from work .
and again i'll say , my legs like wanna break T.T
HAHAS ! had to work half-day at Capitol initially ,
but then manager ask me extend till 10pm at Far East ,
Poope : Lala , can go Far East ? extend pls ? can anot ? pls ?
Lala : Alaaaa ! i lazy arh .
Poope : Pls lah darling , if you can , i help u call Andy .
Lala : Ah ? hahas , can can can ! :D
lols . Poope knows how to convince me by saying only one line , lol !
& ouh i wasa the runner at Capitol just now , and my cousins ; Nisa & Kak Nurul ,
kinda shock me cause they were outside Sakura waving retardedly (ehem!) to me inside ,
hahas . ouh then left Capitol around 5.15 and went to Far East Plaza ,
and hohoho ! i saw the schedule , and i went like what , GOT GUY NAME THAQIB HERE AH ?!
Thaqib who ? Uncle Thaqib ? hahas .
and yes , punch in , went outside and yes , saw Thaqib .
and yes , hes my uncle even thou we're of the same age and of same school same level , same everything lah . lol ! ouh ya , he thought we're cousins . im ure niece lah Pakcik !
hahas . ouh ya , work is tiring duh .
and me , Thaqib and Cherrylin (SP?) run all the way to our mrt platform at Dhoby Ghaut ,
like stupid cause we thought we're gonna miss our last train , when the train we took ,
wasnt the last . haha ! brother fetch me from Ranggung and he started nagging , eg , 'u ah ! work work work , then full shift ! and blablabla , so on and on ' & ouh ! my brother is younger than me , imagine me getting nagged at by my younger brother , it should be the other way round right ? lol . and the thing is i shut up and didnt argue lol .
&& i working tmr and Sunday at Far East , full shift summore , can i cabot ?

as in dont turn up for work ? can can ? answer : cannot .
and ouh RYYYYY ! I NEED MY OTHER UNIFORM !

Ah Cheong keeps asking me whether i love him -.-

and Suresh keep asking me about my boyfriend , and its kinda hard to reply cause ,

i dont have a boyfriend . lol . pple are so weird .

and im amazed Nisa moved on from her break up with Rahu so easily .
bye :D

Friday, December 26, 2008

ahs , i miss going for practises everyday after school ,

& i miss fooling around with those fun girls , i miss getting blisters on my feet , i miss pulling fake eyelashes off my eyelids , i miss getting my hair all hard and spoilt and messy and full of hairpins , i miss pulling/yanking out hair pins hair accesories from my hair , i miss disturbing my instructor , i miss trying on tight dance clothes , i miss , poking myself with safety pins , i miss talking to the other dancers during breaks , i miss running around the school hall like some crazy monkey , i miss getting my butt smack by Anirah (lol !) , i miss washing thick opera-like make up off my face , i miss running from extra classes to dance practise practically everyday , i miss getting excused from class (hahaha!) , i miss hearing Mrs Ng say , 'woah Amirah , you look so elegant today' , hahaha , i miss making a fool of myself during practise , i miss i miss i miss erms erms erms , kay kay u get the idea , i miss dancing . erms , i swear im gonna meet them soon or visit them at Chingay practice . CHINGAY ! not fair ! im the only express senior who didnt get to join Chingay , cause i graduated ! NOT FAIR ! pouts .

hello .
i went to work today at Far East . my legs about to break i tell you .
and people there are nice :D
went for 2 breaks , went for the first break with Suresh ,
talk alot with him , and he kinda make me feel better , for awhile ,
and he told me not to be sad , he even said this ,
if you love someone , set it free ,
if it comes back , its yours ,
if it doesnt , it never was .
so cliche but so true , haha ! hms , he kept trying to persuade me to call him ,
but i didnt want to , just dont feel like it , maybe just not ready .
Suresh said that its obvious that im sad , hahas . reallie meh ?
and Andy , thnks for ure concern ! hahahas .
tmr i working , but i forget what time -.-
hahhas , okay bye .
let me laugh again in ure face , cause i still find it hard to believe everything you said .
& ouhs , i'll be okay i think , work oh work , pls pls keep me busy
so that i wont have time to think bout anything .
ouh ya , ibu ayah adik going Batam (BORING!) tmr , cause they wanna unwind ,
and me and Fahmi (brother) not going cause BATAM IS BORING ,
even though my parents think its fun and relaxing . hahahahaha ! like real !
so not following , and cousin aka tuition teacher staying over for a few days to take care
of me and brother . ouh ya , ibu ayah adik , have a safe and fun trip to boring Batam -.-
yayyyyyyyy ! im not going :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
MWAHAHA ! after 5years of suffering , i finally get to escape . heh !
& ouh im sorry to those who think Batam is fun ! hah .
:D

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

hello ! i fcuking miss school , that explains the picture up there ^^^

and i ffuking loathe peak hour , seriously .

i know i used to tell Daddy that we dont need a car , but now Ayah , we do need a car !

get a car , get a car , get a car ! send me to work everyday ! hur hur , im sick with dealing

with inconsiderate human beings , who take their own sweet time for everything .

i did runner side today , and wtfcuk , altogether got 4 burn marks already , wthell .

and Ry forgot to bring her uniform , so i wore her tshirt home and she wore my uniform .

hahas , working at Far East tmr , working at Capitol Friday , working at Far East Saturday & Sunday (?) , hahahahahahahaha , wtfcuk , i feel like a full-timer cause i work everyday this week .

and received text from him during lunch and i almost puke out everything i put

in my mouth , i got so disgusted , i lost my appetite . i think , i hate you .

i hate that you never try to change when you say you will , i hate that you dont think about

my feelings whenever you want to shoot ure bloody mouth off , or do anything you think

is right , i hate it that youre never satisfied , i hate it that you never try to understand ,

i hate it that ure so paranoid , i hate it that you get jealous for everything , i hate it that

you never seem to be serious when i want you to be , i hate it that i think ure lying to me ,

i hate it that u never seem to try , i hate it that you cant stop nagging ,

i hate it that you control me , my every move , my sleeping time , what i need to do , when i need to eat , i hate it that u think by doing this ure showing that u care , i hate it that

u pinned all ure hopes on me , i hate it that u think every guy i meet is a threat , i hate it that you never try to understand me , i hate it that no matter how much i try to convince you to trust me , you still dont , i hate it that u never listen to what i say , i hate it that u keep having ideas that im gonna cheat on you ,

to summarise it all , i hate everything bout you , you never make me feel nice , theres never been a day

since i met you that i go to sleep smiling , cause ure owaes there dominating my mind ,

telling me to do this and that , making me feel miserable w/o realising it ,

w/o ever thinking that im human and that i have feelings , i hate that u never
think bout my past experiences and try making life better for me ,

i hate it that you dont realise im vulnerable and weak , i hate it that i have to keep trying to

satisfy you when obviously you'll never be satisfied , i hate it that ure just you ,

ive come to the point when ive exceeded my own limit on everything , and that my patience is running out ,

and ive come to realise , i made a big mistake accepting you in my life and for thinking

that i can put up with ure suckish attitude and that you'll change , cause now i stupidly realise

after its all too late that you wont ever change cause you think you rule the world ,

and that everything revolves around you and that ure fcuking perfect .

im the 2nd girl whos gonna say , 'you abused me emotionally and still say you love me',

i used to think 'what crap' when ure ex said this , but now i realised its true ! now i just want time away from you , dont even try to cntct me till i cntct you first . ure just gonna pissed me off , and i know , i wont fcuking regret this fcuking decision , cause this time i know this will make me happy even if its just for awhile , uve failed miserably to make me happy . ive never met a guy like this . and if this is gonna fcuking bruise ure fcuking ego , read this , I DONT FCUKING CARE !

bye .

I MISS SAANGEETHA ! ^^^

hello !, even though i hate going to work nowadays ,
i still end up having fun at work . and Bharat (new collegue !) is fun & cool .
and hes impressed cause im uneffectively bilingual , no sense makey i know ,
& also bcoz __________________________________ .
:D
and and and , Frank is super funny today *clears throat* , talk with funny china accent ,
'fcuk ure bitch , fcuk ure head bitch , lets go bitch , eyyy - sit here bitch , lets smoke bitch , goodbye bitch *waves retardedly*' basically , its a blablabla with the word bitch behind .

i laughed so hard till i fell off my chair . hahaha !
and someone ate the pandan leaf chicken together with the pandan leave , yes ,
never peal the pandan leaf off . got cranky today cause did beverage closing ,
and also bcoz Ah Hui scream at me for idk what , and also emo-auntie scold me
countless of times since idk when , its starting to piss me off ,
cause i practically got scolded for stupid small matters , if not nothing -.-
and ouh ya , its Ah Cheong birthday today , sang him the birthday song , and
smack him 28 times ! and my apron drop into the longkang , what rotten luck .
and i chatted otp & online with Seda aka Saidah Nafisah today , f-ing miss her lah !
and texted Sara oso :D
and here is when i start talking bout whats bothering me ,
im fcuked up that ure fcuked up with me for almost everything ,
and also that u keep thinking that im gonna cheat on you ,
think bout it , if i were to cheat on you i would have done it ages ago and i
wouldnt have chose to be with you when i know how paranoid you are and also bcoz
i know theres even more greater guys than you in this big wide world .
and now im tearing , knnbccb ! i need someone to cheer me up now .
i wanna go somewhere and scream !
bye .

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

haha , woke up this morning cause Chui Fong wake me up ,
with a phone call from work , wtfcuk !
was ask to work at Far East , but she changed her mind after that ,
i have to work at Capitol instead .
hahas , & idk why i but im sick of Capitol oready , haha !
maybe i should consider quitting like Seda ..
hms , okay thats just a thought . or maybe i should just get fired for being late for
more than 5 times this month , wah , looking for unnecessary trouble .
and and and im fcuked up , i know im not the perfect somebody that you want ,
but ive tried to be even near perfect for you ,
so stop treating me like some 6 year-old , that you can reprimand and scold everytime ,
cause im fcuking 6-TEEN ! and it isnt fair that you demand respect from me ,
when ure not respecting me ureself .
is it due to respect that u scold me for almost everything this past few weeks ?
hah ! i think , its just to satisfy ure need for me to be perfect .
have you ever heard the saying , nobodys perfect and im sure as hell im not even near to it ,
but i like me the way the i am , and if you want me to change further for u , read this ,
im not gonna change . nyehaha !
& i rmb waking up to one of the morning last week screaming this ,
' OH SHIT ! RESULTS IN LESS THAN A MONTH ! '
oh god ! results in less than a month . oh god ! results in less than a month !
RESULTS IN LESS THAN A MONTH !
ive the feeling that i'll fail or 'straight to ite Ami , no choice' , or i can only take up
Nursing for a poly course , which im not going to . ahhh ! results in a month .
bye bye bye , im fcuked up .
oo , im suddenly craving for LJS's cheese -.-
and MacD's maple syrup , mwahaha !

like hohoho , hello !
i work today , and surprisingly my fever didnt cause me to break down and
cry like last week . hahas . did runner the whole day today .
and hahas , kinda got pissed . like why wouldnt i , hot soup and hot things keep dropping
on my hands and fingers lah , and i accidentally touched a hotplate , and it
fcuking hurts like alot ! someone prank called me during break and it kinda pissed me off ,
like lol , rhe prank caller , called a whore and i was accused of stealing bf from her .
its no wonder i got pissed , and it kinda make me wanna burst into tears , haha weak ah lu ,
but didnt cause i just laughed it off and called bf after that lah .
and yay ! ANDY CAME ! hahas .
and dinner was fun just now cause i laughed till i cried ,
Aslam called Sita , Missy Elliot cause she talk so fast its as if shes rapping .
and hahaha ! a pig with a stick for a boyfriend ! *nudges Ry*
and we ran around behind the restaurant during our five-minute break ,
*run run run* ,
AMI : 'EH ! WE SUPPOSE TO SIT DOWN AND REST LAH !'
RY : AHHHHHHH ! *RUNS TOWARDS STAIRS*
AMI : HAHAHAHAHA !
hahas . and im working only two days this week , heh !
bye bye bye ! im bored .
& PLS PLS PLS , i have to work out the will power to will something out of my head .
im not suppose to dwell on this , stop thinking bout this .
& ive yet to figure out why i keep getting myself into this kind of situations ,
this happens like almost everytime -.-
*bangs head into wall & run away*
:O

Sunday, December 21, 2008

Friday, December 19, 2008

hello wello jellooooo !
just got back from work , and i can only sey im damn tired than usual .
hehs . was feeling kinda unwell , was down with fever , AGAIN ! and was suffering like hell
at first , but felt a little better after lunch . hahas .
and ANDY CAMEEEEEEEEEEEEE ! wooooo ~ ,
*jumps and dance around uncontrollably and bangs into wall and drop to ground like stupid coconut* me & Ryann was damn excited to see him , but i think i jumped like a excited hungry monkey when i saw him , lol ! okays , went for two hours break just now ,
went to change the pants mummy bought for me and then accompanied Ry to City Hall to
meet Joe cause she had to go to Buangkok for closing shift ..
went back to Sakura and Mee Kee ask me to accompany her to Bugis to get stuffs .
and everything at Bugis , is like usual , very appealing to my eyes and it caused my heart to ache , cause i cant like just stop and shop to my heart's content , cause one , im broke , like usual , and two is bcoz i need to get back to work like asap just now .
but i already got cousin to accompany me to go shop whenever i have the money ,
cant wait cant wait , kening naek naek *laughs maniacally*
went back to work after that . and i guess im reallie tired cause i did service today ,
and also bcoz i waas running all over the place during my break .
and Fifi & Aslam laughed at me just bcoz i love to read ? stupid .
and ouh ouh !, 1 day to the 20th .
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMMARAH & SIS MAISARAH !
& im waiting for baby to come back from Johor , bored .
and and and , Frank wanted to treat me to Karaoke for my birthday , but
i told him i wanted the rest of the people in Sakura to go and he changed his mind , haha !
and and !, Congrats to all the people who collected their N Level results today , atleast to those who pass luh , and Congrats Baby for getting enough points to get into the course you want ,
im very happy for you !
and i dont want to work full-shift tmr , sad . and i want Ryyyyyyyyyy ! lululalalili , mwahaha .
Ah Cheong gave me lollipops just now !
and Faizal Jaafar , my awesome plus very irritating classmate , my birthday is on the 20th , its not today , its tmr ! thnks for the advance birthday wish niways .
& HAPPY NISA & RAHU DAYYYYY !
my cousin wont be able to see this until a month later , i realise that .
okay , gotta go update Ridhwan's fan club now ,

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

hello .
yesterday went to Mediacorp Broadcast Center to support my cousin ,
and hell yeah it was fun , even though its tiring . hehs .
woke up very early yesterday and met up with cousin and her boyfriend at Toa Payoh ,
and then went to Whampoa , Auntie's house , met up with my adorable cousins and
cabbed to Mediacorp . whoa ! its fun down there but suffered a headache down there
cause the lighting down there was a bit too striking ? lol .
and we had to do loads of retakes and we have to cheer like damn loudly repeatedly ,
its no wonder i had a headache . sadly , i didn camwhore yesterday .
and Ridhwan was great , like usual . and his chinese was atrocious , lol !
but hes trying there i guess . overall , yesterday was fun and its not a wasted trip cause
i went there to support my cousin ! and i can tell he was delighted to have us there .
didnt work today , was on standy but guess i wasnt needed cause didnt receive a call from work , met Baby today ! yay . i still miss him alot though .
hms , and yes ! 3 days to the 20th .
&&& i wanna watch , Quarantine , Nick & Norah's Infinite Playlist , Angus, Thongs & Perfect Snogging and The Day The Earth Stood Still . lols . thats alot of movies , haha !
bye .

Monday, December 15, 2008

EDITED ! -

i promised Ah Cheong i'll take a pic with him if he buy me sweets ,

and he did ! so i took a picture with him ! hahas .

work is fun and Poope isnt that bad like how i expected her to be .

lols , i used to think shes evil cause she scold me last time . lols !

and she got lick & bite my neck when she hugged me goodbye yest .

ahhhhhs ! wanna know why she did that , ask me yourself . lol !

and i almost slip and fall just now , cause someone dropped water on he floor ,

and my finger got stuck in between two chairs and its kinda swollen now ,

thanks to my dumb self .

i did beverage just now and i got so annoyed i almost cried -.-

tsk i know .

and i miss Andyyy ! come down to Capitol lah !

and i wanna work with RYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY !

and oooooh ! 5 days to the 20th ! yay .

& i somehow realised i dont like coming to work anymore , cause theres nothing to look

forward to anymore .

AND me and Ry has a secret , shhhh !

BYE !

i miss that woman like hell loads .

& Yaya dear , i dont wanna go window shopping , its boring .

hahas ! i'll visit u at Malay Dance Prac soon ayte ?

& cheer up !, im very much here for you !

i love you :D

& my blog song is a very much dedicated to Baby ! *hugs .

Sunday, December 14, 2008

my long-overdued survey tagged by Ry , have yet to do the survey tagged by Lynette .
some other time maybe ;

Starting time: 1238hrs

Name : Nurul Amirah .

Heigh : 1-5-something .

Where do you live : Singapore .

Favourite drink : ooooo , Coke & the tea i drink at work & Coffeeeeeee !

Have you ever been on a plane : Yes .

Fallen asleep at school : yes , loadsa times .

Broken someone's heart : yes .

Fell off your chair : i think so , cant rmb .

Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call : no , i would have fallen asleep then .

Saved emails : emails ? No .

What is your room like : Normal , and abit untidy in the mornings .

Last thing you ate : staff food at work and the sweet Ah Cheong bought for me .

Had chickenpox? : Nope .

Sore throat : duh .

Broken nose : no .

Do you believe in love at first sight : yeahs !

Like picnics? : i LOVE picnics .

Who was the last person you danced with : i think it was with Frank at work , lol !

Last person you smiled at : i think my bro , an hour ago .

You last yelled at : hms jokingly , my family .

Today did you...

Talk to someone you like : yeahs !

kiss anyone : no .

Fall sick : i am sick .

Talk to an ex : no .

miss someone : yes , baby especially ! and Yaya Bestie !

eat : duh ?

Best feeling in the world : idk ?

Do you sleep with stuff animals? : use to .

What's under my bed : dust .

What time is it now : 1244hrs .

Random

Is there someone on your mind now : yes yes !

Do u have any siblings? : yes .

Do you want children : yes , duh .

Do you smile often : very much too often .

Do you like your handwriting? : yes , its nice and untidy at the same time . lol !

Are your toenails painted ? : NO !

Who's bed other than yours would you rather sleep in : for now , dont have , I LOVE MY BED !

What colour short are you wearing now : dark blue shorts .

What were you doing at 7pm yesterday? : i forgot .

U can't wait till ? : my birthday !

Are you a friendly person : too friendly .

Do u have any pets : yes , a pet cat .

Where is the person you have feelings for right now? : at home , on his bed -.-

Did the last person you held hands with mean anything to you? : of course , baby !

Do you sleep with the tv on? : sometimes yeahs .

Have you ever crawled through a window? : yes .

Are you too forgiving ? : some people point it out before .

Are you closer to your mom or dad? : both !

Who was the last person you cried in front of? : i think it was Saangeetha & Sufyan , one night at night studies .

How many people can you say u really love : loadsa people , but i love baby the most :D

Do you eat healthy? : NO .

DO you have pics of you and your ex : i kept it somewhere .

Have you ever cried because of something someone said to u : erms yeahs .

If you are having a bad day, who would you go to? : Baby , Ry , Farah !

Are you loud or quiet : both , depending on the situation .

Are you confident : i think so , maybe .

5 things i was doing 10 years ago : playing with me and my bro's 3 basketful of toys , playing weird games , crying , irritate Ibu , getting lost at Orchard and falling seriously sick .

5 Things on my to-do lists : nothing cause i dont have a to-do list .

5 things i would do if i'm a billionaire : hms , start a company and bla bla bla .

5 of my bad habits : i sleep late , i wake up late , i procrastinate , i bite my nails , and i tend to do nothing when im at home .

5 places i lived in : Toa Payoh ; Granny's Place , Toa Payoh ; Old Home , Sengkang ; Rivervale Walk , Sengkang ; Rivervale Drive , Yishun ; Granny's Place .

tag 8 people to do the quiz : OPEN TO PUBLIC .

i feel like going shopping , i wanna buy cute-cute dresses -.-
Ibu ? Ayah ? sponsor me ? hahahaha !
bnyk cantik muke ! , bye .

Thursday, December 11, 2008

ouh boy , you crack me up !
like seriously , i laughed like hell alot yesterday when i got the text ,
and i laughed even more today when i read the particular person's blog .
like HAHA ! by blogging just that , ure trying to give me even if not everyone ,
that ure the one who suffered throughout our month-long rship ,
and what ? standing ovation ? from who ? ure so-called friends ? who badmouth & laughed at
u behind ure back ? i shall stop here in case i cause anymore trouble or fights OR in case more people terase again . lols .
& oh ! im very glad that you realised who you are .
and if youre trying to say that what i blog is just lies , what about you ?
and all ure so-called friends who lied to you ?
and hah ! why should i be freaking jealous of ure life ? i dont want my life to be like ures ?
why would i want my life to be like ures when all ure a joke to many people ?
you chose to rather believe them than me in the past , so now , live with it .
you think everybody is true to you . all i can say is youre very naive .
and like i said , i dont live to please people , so anybody who read this and think im wrong ,
its ure own problem , cause i believe im right . hahs !
toodles .

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

the convo was like few days ago & omigod ! can somebody tell me , where else can i get a guy like this who is like super sweet . 30 secs ehs bi ? i reallie wish this would happen on the day i breathe my last . and yes , i love you like ouh-so much :D

YESTERDAY !

; went to the Rvps bbq organised by the awesomeSixsome , couldnt stay long ,

cause i got curfew and i cant even be late for a second , so i rushed home around 9.30pm and reached home around 10.25pm . hehs . it was a blast lah , seeing all the other ex-Rvps malay students that we've not met for approximately 4years . and there was this person ,

who reallie was damn irritating , like very very irritating . lols , shall not mention who ,

but i think Naqib knows . right right ? went back home , shower and everything and then fell asleep , was so damn tired i dont know why . hahas .

TODAY !

was suppose to go to work today but didnt cause im having fever D: again . i keep falling sick even before i recover fully from the previous time i got ill . hehs . and im on StandBy tmr and Sunday , and i cant work on Saturday . meaning , if i dont get called tmr and Sunday , im only working one day this week which is on Friday -.-

is this a good thing or a bad thing ? depending on how u look at it uhs .

and from the way i look at it , its bad cause my pay is entirely based on how many hours i work . lols . money-face , then again , whos not ? hahas . planning to get the exact same schedule as Ryann next week cause we miss each other , aww .

and i wanna go Far East !, cause Radiah and Seda & not to mention Andy , my awesome ex-manager is there . lols , so Far East , pls pls pls , not have enough manpower , and Andy , pls call on ure dear Lala to take on the job . haha !

and next i wanna talk about some random topic , this has been on my mind since forever .

okay not exactly forever but since last week cause Ry made me realise this .

sometimes , people act all vulnerable to make people have the impression that they are the kind of people who wont stab them in the back as they act all loyal and trustworthy .

other than that , from the show they put on , people give them sympathy cause they not only show us that theyre loyal and trustworthy , they also show us that they have low self-esteem .

ive met alot of this kinda people . and i can admit and accept the fact that ive been cheated emotionally by them . we gave them sympathy and made them our best friends ,

but in the end , they grow stronger than they already were and ended up hurting the people , who help them when they were so-called in theyre vulnerable moments ..

cause now i realised a fact that nobody actuallie have low self-esteem , somewhere in somebody ,

in that little part in their brain , theres something thats telling them , that theyre strong ,

and they can have and do whatever they want if theyre brave enough . like lols , the main point here is that , i dont think i can trust anybody anymore , going through all the failed relationships and in some cases friendship , i think everybody in a way or two feels that theyre superior than the other and that nobody ever admits theyre mistakes . and again i would say ,

someone's low self-esteem is just a facade to cover up for that someone's high self-confidence .

so now , i no longer trust anybody except for those close loved ones who stick with me through whatever . & most importantly , i dont trust people who so-called have no confidence in themself , cause right in front of my eyes theres one living evidence that proves to me my ramblings are right . and you , you promised me loads of things , but up till now , have you ever fulfilled one of them ? so much for not breaking anyone's heart . then , am i not someone ? you think ure such a nice person isit ? u think ure such a angel ? hell no , i feel sorry for myself for ever calling you my bestfriend . cause now i know , you never fulfill ure promises . and that ure that one person i shouldnt have trust from the start , knowing how things would have turned out now . and to ever think , i almost passed out a guy as great as Firas , for a person like you . you dont even care now do you ? and once again i would say , ure low self-esteem is just a facade to cover up for ure high self-confidence . and i think by reading this post , you can somehow figure out who im talking about . and pls , i admit that i did hurt you emotionally , but can you ever admit ure mistakes ? towards me atleast ? think about it , hah ! now i dont think i should even feel guilty for everything . i should follow Ry's advice and not give a shit bout ure feelings or what you think of me anymore cause now i realise i dont live to pls people like you .

and hahas , that took a whole load of my chest , and , i received a text from someone last week , and from the way the person is informed bout my the song on my blog , i can immediately infer that the you i mentioned just now was the informer . and i can also infer that they also did bad-mouth about me which just proves that theyre mega losers whos jealous of my awesome life .

hahas , suckaaaa !

bye .

& I MESSED UP MY BLOG CODES !

shall use my old blogskin for the time being .

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

hello !
Campus Superstar '09 starts on the 5th of Jan 2009 .
and the reason why im blogging bout this , is bcoz my ouh-so sweet plus very talented cousin
is one of the top-12 contestants in it . chey promoting cousin sendiri sey .
yeahs whatever , so my dear chinese friends or pple who just so happens to love watching Campus Superstar or even strangers who just happen to stop by my blog ,
pls go to http://rid-fanclub.blogspot.com ; Rid CSS'09 Official Fan Club , credits me ! and leave a comment to support my dear cousin Ridhwan .
and ouh ya , when the show starts , pls vote for him ayte ?
and his friendster fan club official page is under maintenance , will put it up soon :]
hehs , and yes ah ! free concerts for me !
im gonna go get ready now for bbq ! weeeeeeeeeeee ~

Monday, December 8, 2008

hello , first and foremost , Selamat Hari Raya , to all Muslims all over the world :] went to granny's house just now , and finally met all my cousins . and cousin Amirah is damn pretty now ! prettier than me ! chey puji diri sendiri sey haha ! hms , camwhore abit , with beloved Auntie Suzy also , shes like damn spontaneous ! and then headed to Khatib , auntie's house , cause Atok over there . came a little to late , cause my lovely nephew , Naqib left a few minutes before i came , sad case . crapped and slacked with my cousins and then watch Suci at Sensasi , and then left . and yay ! meeting the Rvps Clique tmr , for bbq-bbq-bbq ! cant wait . bye . & i miss dear .

Saturday, December 6, 2008

liar , liar pants on fire ,
im pissed cause u lied , u liar .
liar liar liar . liar .

hello . work 12pm-10pm today with Ry ! did beverage from 5-10pm and i got a bit pissed at closing cause idk , i feel pressured and everybody's rushing blablabla . i dont think i had the 'im not washing that face' on , cause nobody pointed it out , and bcoz i didnt mind washing cups ! lols . but i legs hurts alot though . hehs . and tmr is not Andy's last day , but its the last day i can see him , sobs . and i need to get new shoes ! & Cassie is leaving tmr , and watching Ry and Christine cry just now , made me wanna cry except i didnt cause im strong , and cause i know she'll come back , smiles . and Ah Cheong gonna give me sweet tmr , cause i asked him to buy for me :]]] and i miss dear . bye

Friday, December 5, 2008

& ouh hello hello ! better forget bout me uploading pictures here , cause i got like ALOT of pictures , and im still , like always , lazy . Cass's farewell party part 1 , was yesterday ! and it was at Sentosa . and me and Firas walk all the way to the end of Siloso Beach , when Aisyah meant the beginning when she said the end O.O walk to the end and then to the beginning of Siloso Beach and finally found them , hehs . did nothing much there , except snap a few pictures using Colin's beau-ti-fool camera ! im so jealous , and he broke my heart , when he refused to sell it to me , heh . went back to Vivo and was forced to eat by Firas and then watch Beverly Hills Chihuahua at GV . wanted to watch Quaratine at first , but sadly we cant cause its a NC16 rated movie , and im NOT 16 yet , wthell ! but i'll be in 15days ! weeee ~ went back home 15mins later than what i promise Ayah , almost got grounded for 3months , but luckily , didnt cause Ayah chnge his mind . yay . woke up around 2pm today and received a call from Mr Manager like almost immediately , telling me i have to work . work at Far East today !, i like the staff there !and Andy leaving in , idk how many days , i cant be bothered to count cause , i know hes leaving soon ! *wails* sad . i want glads ! i want glads ! i want glads ! as in gladiator sandals . hehs . anybody ? get a pair for me ? *whines* and i got 2 quizzes to do tagged by Ry & Diana ! :] bye .

Monday, December 1, 2008

hello .
havent been updating for the past two days ,
cause i was away , hehs .
Friday , cousin Nisa cameover and sleptover at my house cause we're going
out to Vivo early Saturday morning for Ibu's company family day .
on Saturday woke up around 7.15am (super early i know) and get ready .
went out at 9am and then met Firas :] at 9.30 at Sengkang interchange .
train-ed to Vivo and met Ibu and Ayah at Golden Village .
they went to watch their movie first which was Quantom Of Solace and left me ,
Firas , my cousin Nisa and my brothers with nothing to do .
so , me and Firas walk around and ate breakfast (he's treat , ty-ty)
and left my cousin and brothers by themself . hahas .
we came back around 11.30am to watch Madagascar 2 ; Escape to Africa which started at 11.25 ,
pass the movie tics to my cousin and bros and collect our popcorn , yes free with compliments
from Drew & Napies LLC , ibu's company .
missed the starting but hell yeah ! the movies awesome !, i love it .
when the movie end , train-ed to Toa Payoh to my aunt's house ,
Ayah invited Firas to come with us but he had to go Johor with his family ,
and he watch Twilight and Johor , w/o me ! sad sad . and he said the movies great ,
im so gonna watch it .
back to what i was saying ..
Kak Shidah's wedding was a blast ,
all her cousins including me , had loadsa fun ,
taking informal pictures with the bride and groom .
and now i got a nephew , whos damn manja and super naughty and cute ,
who'll get scared whenever i threatened to tell his Umi about whatever
he doesnt want me to tell ..
hahas . and all of us had fun joking and playing around with each other ,
and Abang Iwan bought me and Nisa Ben & Jerry's which was awesome ,
we bought for tubs of the ice cream and me and Nisa had one each .
hehs ! thanks Abang , he treat us cause it was his first pay as a firefighter !
wooooo . hehs .
went back to Nenek house after that and slept quite late , everybody was so stonned
cause we were tired and we woke up damn early the next morning , thanks to Wak Ani ,
Nisa's mum who screamed and shouted damn early cause she was being chased around by
my another Aunt's damn fierce pet cat . lols !
and i woke up got ready and went to the multi-purpose hall . hehs !
we ate the usual food thats served at weddings and the kendarats ,
Kak Shidah hired , are super-nonsensical . not saying all , but in particular two of them ,
was like step big shot down there . wthell ?? ure just a kendarat , who our family hired ,
ure not one of us . and who are you to stare at me ? when i didnt even say or do anitink to you .
hahas , pls . you wanna threatened me ? its so damn funny lah ,
a kendarat who tak sedar diri .. just continue wiping tables and collecting plates lah ehs ..
ure nobody down there to threatened or talk to me . hah !
ouh yes , my nenek from my mother's side and aunt and uncle came for the wedding ,
along with my cute cousins :] and congrats cousin Ridhwan , for getting into the
top-12 of campus superstar .. and pls my dear chinese friends ,
pls vote for Ridhwan for ure next campus superstar ? hahas .
there cuz , ive done my part !
after the wedding end and everything , take cab home and shower and slept all the way till
the next morning . hehs .
i'll post the pictures in my next post , have yet to bluetooth it to my laptop . hehs .
bye :]