Ameeeeeeeeey ♥

Saturday, March 24, 2007

its truly candid. i keep snapping her.

daniel's pics are candid too.

QILAH's ; onlie one is nort candid.

the DESMOND pic is candid.

there's actuallie a BLACK border,
but since teh bckground is black, u carn see it.

pics found in hp.
edited bby mie. (=
hahas.
pics of JIJA.
pics of DANIEL.
pics of QILAH.
pics of DESMOND.JASPER.JOEL.
i compiled dem together nn edited.
hahs.
i had nutink better tuhh do.
enjoy dem anywaes.

im bored nn i've been rotting in front of my boyfie ferr hours.
the comp ehhs.

mie. farah. sufyan
we're OKAE!!!
everytinks changing slowly.
things are changing ferr the better.

2dae at madrasah.
was OKAE!!!
fasyiha came.
i miss fasyiha larhh okae.
we didn meet since last year.
izwah,syazwani nn sofia rox my fugly black socks.
we did have fun kinda crapping.
nn firas tegor mie thru TISSUE!!!
yes tissue.
nort he throw at mie or wadd..
he ask mie whether i gort tissue.
hahs.
nn i
'' TSK.TSK.TSK. mcm budak kecyk larhh kau.''
at hym wenn he played
catching insyde our classroom wif some kidd.
hahas.
nn he gave mie the STOINK look
; n saed, '' SEMUER BUDAK KECIK. BORING UHHS!!!''
so i gave hym the,
-.-'' look.
hahs.
old frenn we are..

nn i did nutink the whole dae.
im freaking bored.
nobody tuhh ask mie out.
but even if tehy ask,
i wont go out coz,
IM FREAKING LAZY!!!
if someone ask mie before i gort lazy,
maybbe i'll go..
hahs. so ask mie out before i get lazy.

toodles;taccaire.
BLUElicious -

Thursday, March 22, 2007

T.T

pls larhh dearest frenn.
ure supposed tuhh bbe my frenn.
yet u treat me lyke crapp..
ignoring mie wenn im toking tuhh eu.
walking awae wenn im beside u..
u didn even ask mie along wenn u went tuh the canteen.
am i even there tuhh eu?
YAR! u treat mie lyke i was there ONLIE IF u
have a problem tuhh complain tuhh mie.
but wenn ure fine nn evrytink goes smoothly ferr eu
; u wont even listen tuhh mie, listen tuhh my problems,
much less treat mie as a frenn.
u treat mie lyke a dogg.. listening tuhh ur self-centered commands.
making use of mie.
denn complain tuhh someone else
; about ur unhappiness towerds mie.
i tried my best tuhh do everytink u wann
; even thou im tired.
but do u understand?
do u understand mie at all?
u juz wanns everytink tuhh go ur wae.
u juz WONT listen tuhh mie.
am i ur dog?
i noe im nort pretty, clever or good in anytink at all.
almost everyone dislikes mie.
almost evryone treat mie lyke crapp.
i dun wann bbe pretty pple. i juz wann tuhh bbe respected.
i wann tuhh bbe treated lyke how the other are treated.
i didn ask tuhh bbe lyke dis.
im already born lyke dis.
getting dirty insults from pple
; does nort make mie feel any better.
IM TIRED!!! do u understand?
im tired of being treated lyke dis.

nn u... i miss u soo much.
budden do u care?
both of u.. org tuer nn bestie.
u both treat mie lyke crapp.
act as if i didn exist..
act as if im nort there.
org tuer.
why do u care all of a sudden?
why onlie now?
why onlie after i gett so fucked up nn soo hurt by ur actions
; denn show mie dat u care?
why onlie now?
i noe u. i noe u very well.
i noe u lyke herr.
budden does dat mean u have treat mie differently
denn how u treat her?
u noe mie longer denn u noe her.
but why do u treat mie lyke dis?
lyke im nort even there?
u did everytink ferr her?
but would u do antink fer mie?
ur frenn from last tyme?
would u?
why onlie now, fren?
WHY?!!!

i juz wann tuhh bbe treated equally.
lyke an human. nort a dog.
i wann tuhh bbe treated equally fren.
but can u do dat ONCE fer mie?
can u? both of u talk as if im nort even there?
following both of u around helplessly nn foolishly
; without anyone of u turning around tuhh even
invite mie tuhh the conversation.
IM NORT PRETTY. IM NORT SMART!
but at least IM HUMAN!
every human wanns a right in everytink.
every human wanns tuhh bbe treated fairly.
every human wanns tuhh bbe treated as if he or she exist.
but, y dear fren? cann u do dat ferr mie.

dats teh onlie thing im asking from u.
can u do dat ferr mie?
i've been keeping this within mie ferr so loooong.
since teh beginning of skool.
can u do dat ferr mie?

if nort..
juz ferget about mie.
let mie bbe alone.
let mie bbe by myself.
without any worries tuhh think of.
juz ferget the frenship we built up.
juz let it crumble tuhh the ground.

IM TIRED!
WO HEN LEYY!!

I GIVE UP!!!

toodles;taccaire.
BLUElicious -

Sunday, March 18, 2007

OMFG!!!
thankz.thankz.thankz.
thankz.thankz.thankz.
thankz.thankz.thankz.
ZAINAL!!!
coz u FINALLY gave mie my project print-out.
I LURVE YOU!
but of coz,
i LURVE andy more.

i made a new layout.
coz im bored wif the old one.
im nort an expert in layout editing nn stuff.
so dis will do ferr my standard.

been rotting in front of the computer all dae.
sorie dear second boifrenn.
my second boifrenn is the COMP larhh ferr goodness sake.
im playing tymer wif an non-living creature.
hahas.

tomorrow skool reopening.
NO!NO!NO!
hours of torture in skool.
AGAIN!!!
being tormented by tchers.
but at least ther's frens.
YAY-ness.
nn i miss daniel, faris,faizal,suhaimi..
the list can go on
; coz i miss everyone in my class.
lynn, fiona, sam, jasmine....
stop mie.. b4 i go on.
hahs.

im bored.
nn i kept a promise wiff dear.
mandi,mkn,tdo.
okok; PROMISE!!!

dats all larhh.

toodles;taccaire.
BLUElicious -

Saturday, March 17, 2007

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OKAE ; IM BORED.
DURH!!!
i dunnoe why..
; 2dae, i juz dun feel lyke toking tuhh anyone.
sorie ehk dear.
i told u i wanted tuhh sleep.
but its onlie bcoz i didn wann tuhh tok.
didn feel lyke toking tuhh anyone.
sorie i lied.

oooo00000OOOOO.
so in lurve wig
GIRLFRIEND - AVRIL LAVIGNE.
the song in my blogg larhh..
2dae so far
; did nutink.
nn i bathed at 3pm
wenn i woke up at 10am.
i was freaking lazy okae.
woke up tok tuhh mum,
on comp. lyke azreen ,
the comp has become my second my second boyfren.
nn sucessfully,
; ive completed all my hmwerk. sort of.
i WONT do my maths nn my bio.
waste tyme onlie do.
nmpk sangat nobody will do bio.
but maths, ; let dat MR PANG chase mie around wif a PARANG!
malas uhh nk uat.

HOLIDAE ARE ENDING!!!
i hate skools holidae.
there are alwaes HMWERK!!!
nn daes used tuhh cum bck tuhh skool.
no tyme ferr ourself..
at least dat goes ferr mie.
coz im alwaes broke nn i prefer tuhh seat
in front of the comp and rot.
nn nobody ask mie out nn im happie bout it coz
im lazy tuhh go out oso...

pple i've chatted to during the holidaes,
the lovely pple...
; ZAINAL, AZREEN, FIRAS, HAKIM, SAANGEETHA,
ANIRAH, HUDARIA, AZIRAH, SUHARDI, SUFYAN, HAIRUL,
RIDHWAN, AMMARAH, NOI...
i think theres more. im sorie if i left anyone out.
dats all i can remember uhhs.

i stayed up pretty late last nyte.
downloading some software.
nn chatting tuhh lyke...
NOBODY!!!
until 11 ++ wenn dt FIRAS wenn online.
aperlarhh. nk online lmbt-lmbt.
ngahh chat best-best skali my
comp mati larhh dehhs.
BINGIT UHHS!!!
sorie yerr FIRAS..

nn ZAINAL u fergett my print-out.
i tot u wann give mie by 2dae?
nemind. 2moro okaes..
hahs. dun ferget durh!

bored larhh uhhs.
cann anyone who im close to come online?
i juz wann see u online..
i wont chat coz i dun feel lyke toking.
BLUEKS.
aper jerr larhh seyy sikk mira nie.

kae larhh dats all.

toodles;taccaire.
BLUElicious -

Friday, March 16, 2007

STOP IT LARH EHK!!!

nyce entrance.
woohoo.

malay dance was FUN , FUN,FUN!!!
i loike teh juniors teh back part dat one.
so theo organise nn cute larhh..
espicially huda, anirah, nurlina nn izyani.
hahs. the expression on anirah's face is very cute larhh..
mcm nk pinch-pinch jer.
she gort the, ''cikgu. STOP-IT'' look on her face
wenn cikgu gave them the stupidest step.
hahs..
i lurve demm many-many larhh..

i lurve farah. li lurve jija. i lurve kak ati.
hahs.
we waited nn made loads of commotion at the bus-stop ryte?
hahs.
wanted tuhh go hougang mall at ferst.
skali trmnpk kak ati nn jija.
they sae they waitink ferr sumone.
so waited wif demm lorh..
kpo-kpo sikit.
hahs..
went hougang mall after dat.
; dear keep asking mie wheter i wann anitink.
NO!NO!NO!
haas. im on kind of gerl.
; slalunyer gerls ask fer treats from their boifrenns.
but i wont nn wont accept one from dear.
haas. wadd kind of gerl is dis.
one of a kind larhh deyy..
den split up at the bus-stop.
dear send mie home..
i miss u larhh seyy.

hairi has teh stop-it perangai larhh..
on wedns he was lyke so kecoh.
2dae too..
he hit my tudong saji wenn i mock hym while he's dancing.
followed his steps larhh.
hahs
he saed he wanns tuhh ejek mie but tkder pon.
aper jerr larhh seyy.

FAUZI damn cute.
he dance along wif us.
bleh tahan kecoh larh dier.
syazwani adek btw.
he dance wif the seniors in front...
cute larhh..
i tot wanted tuhh take an video wif of hym dancing.
but too bad.
i wzs dancing how to take?
cikgu naim lyke soooo bad sia
; fauzi wann salam..
den . HAHAS.
cannot explain.
those who were there should noe..

dats all ferr now larhh seyy.

toodles;taccaire.
BLUElicious -

Thursday, March 15, 2007

thinking...

linns doing her werk.

ndy. doing MY werk. SEBOK JERR!!

i was bored in front of teh pc ferr 4 hrs..
so i camwhored.

i chatted wif cuzzin cum boifie.

im tired and my body's aching all over.
dats wad happened wen im a little tired.
i get so called fits wen im REALLIE tired.
projects nn homwerks...
make mie bz ferr the week.
the whole holidae week.
its suppose tuhh be HOLIDAE WEEK!!!
but hmwerks and projects occupied most of my tyme..

& i camwhored alort..
hahs. sempat seyy...

nutink tuhh blogg about..

toodles;taccaire.
BLUElicious -

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

14032007.

haha.

serious yet funny but still FUN!!!

the pics above were from the camwhoring 2dae.

saangeetha.azreen.qee.farah.

SLAP MIE - i carn blive we completed the project.

hairul.sufyan.farah.

LOL - laugh a lort on teh wae walking tuhh hm.

the project wa completed in a short tyme coz the 5 of us

put in alort of hardwerk. seriously. WOW!!!

i loike larh.

at ferst we were kinda relax nn were lazy tuhh do it at ferst.

but due tuhh saangeetha's anxious-ness, we did it at last.

haha..

sufyan.hairul.farah.

i reallie had fun walking tuhh HOUGANG MALL

wif these gal nn guys.

HAIRUL espicially --- made mie laugh alort.

sufyann oso wif the cicak on the wall thing..

nn thankz tuhh this gentlemen,

they treat us go take neoprint..

so nyce of them.

sorie ehk mie nn farah BROKE!!!

thankz alort guyz.

currently my

; scanner-printer-fax machine is DISCONNECTED from the pc.

alarh ; so i can scanned the neos.

haha..

too bad liaos..

toodles;taccaire.

BLUElicious -

Sunday, March 4, 2007

yesterdae was such a boring dae.
did nutink teh whole dae.
ponteng madrasah again.
ahahaha.
alternate weeks larh i ponteng.
i ponteng bcoz gort fever.

did my chores.
wash my school shoes.
WOW!!! im used tuhh bbe so manjer.
ask my maid tuhh do everytink.
but now she's gone.
GOOD!!! i dun wann maid aniwaes.
summore one who is veri abusive.
she slapped mie once okae.
BITCH LARH!!!
i did nutink wrong okae.
she vented her anger on mie.
now she's gone, i get a chance tuhh bbe independant.
cheyy ; CAM BTOL!!!

laze around the house.
mum & dad went out.
wanted tuhh go see the six dancers perform.
but nenek and cuzzins came.
they ajak mie go tdo umah nenek.
so, sorie gals.
couldnt make it..

went umah nenek
nn discovered dat my others cuzzies are
SICKED.
alamak.
satu-satu senyap jer.
but i still manage tuhh have fun wif kak siti,
toking about derr cicakman thingy.
even thou i havent watch it,
kak siti made mie reallie cracked-up wenn she saed a line from teh movie.
'' stamp kecyk sangat, KEDEKUT!!! ''
denn she go buy sweet fer her adeq so cheap sia.
i saed,
'' guler murah sangat, KEDEKUT!!!''
AHAHAHAHA.
mepek sia.

went back home early coz mum ask mie nn bro go home early.
nn oso bcoz i havent do the malay thingy.
wahhh!!! ismah did eu give mie ur werk?
ur paper nort wif mie larh.
...
aiyoyos...

ouhgahahahaha.
i keep remembering the cicak man thingy.
ahahaha.
i bought alort of things juz now.
i spend quited alort.
ahahaha.
dat white hairband, pink scarf, dat red ear studs
, rubberbands nn clips.
i wann more money can?
so i cann shop more.
nenek bring mie go johor larh
or give mie more money
; so i cann shop.
ahahahaha.
i lyke so derr manjerr wif my nenek.

kekekeke.

okae larh.
no more too update.

toodles;taccaire.
BLUElicious -

Saturday, March 3, 2007

im sorie okae...
im so, sorie dear.
some of us seriously feel dat it wasnt fair dat
we found out about dat performance before
u all tell us about it.
we seriously DO NOT mind u all performing w/o the group.
we support all of u.
but if dis happened tuhh all of eu also,
wont eu bbe hurt?
dats wad happening tuhh us,
we're hurt because u didn tell us earlier.
if eu had told us earlier,
we wouldnt be feeling lyke dis at all.
i noe cik su didn wann eu tuhh tell us.
budden, its too bad we found out about it.
nn we felt hurt...
dats juz how we feel.
im nort angry about it, juz hurt.
im sorie okae...
but dats juz how we feel.
i noe it was hard ferr eu tuhh tell us.
i saw the expression on ur face.
i noe being a chairman is nort easy...
i saw the wae u were angry at us wenn we wasnt
listening.
i noe its nort easy.
i dun wann ur position, i juz wann all of the seniors,
tuhh enjoy their last year in the skool.
but, too bad, i dunnoe why, i feel hurt.
im sorie okae. i seriously dunnoe why.

about kak j,
we seriously dunnoe why she were angry at us.
she should have told us.
im sensitive ; i admit.
her werds was harsh, i couldn help feeling insulted.
wad was i tuhh do?
ask her wenn she's angry?
wouldn she be even more angry?
mie nn farah had no idea,
she suddenly was lyke dat even before we tok tuhh her.
but yesterdae, she was in a good mood.
i hope dat will last coz i reallie lyke her dat wae.

finallie,
IM SORIE!!!
IM REALLIE-REALLIE SORIE!!!
if i put eu in a spot.
im terribbly sorie...

the dance sux alort.
we gort alort of scolding.
but i noe its ferr our own good.
i dont mind gettink scolded or watever.
budden it reallie make my mood go sour.
wenn an outsider told us dat our dance is reallie messy.
too many dancers, he saed.
i noe my perangai was suckish on weds.
why? ; bcoz i RIMAS!!! wif teh dancing conditions.
wad teh heck rite?
i carn even dance properly.
wenn i turn i hit or bump into someone.
dats why my perangai was suckish on wedns.
but, my passion ferr dance wont ever change..

toodles;taccaire.
BLUElicious-

Friday, March 2, 2007

hellowww.

im at skool ryte now.
lazy tuhh go home tuhh kemas rumah.
++++ its still frigging early tuhh go home.
so why should i waste my tyme doing nutink at home
; where's theres computers tuhh use in skool.
my comp at home is lyke sux larh.
sikit2 virus larh denn lagg larh denn after dat internet connection
ter-cut off. dumb larh.
my computer is going tuhh ROSAK one off these dae.

wednesdae was a very RAINY dae.
had speech dae rehearsal after skool.
hell tiring nn teh dance lyke ouh frigging sux larh.
we're making such a big skool of ourself.
derr secones are lyke so derr nort discipline.
THERE ARE TOO MANY DANCERS!!!
lemmie repeat ; TOO MANY DANCERS!!!
carn cikgu see?
yar he did saw nn end up,
mie, suzanna nn syak gettink cut-off from derr dance.
we're the seniors nn we actuallie got cut off.
WAD THE HECK!!!
im nort prejudiced against the sec ones
BUT some of demm are juz lyke dun
have a clue about derr dance.
nn its juz so unfair dat
; wenn my batch was in sec one,
we didn even get tuhh perform a single dance
until sec 2.
u tell mie larh... is dat fair.
im nort happy okae.
im lyke so derr nort enjoying dance now.
WTH!!!

dat performance ; u didn even tell us until we found out ourself.
u tell mie, do eu even lyke respect us at all?
i noe cikgu pick ua ll budden still, even if dis happened tuhh eu,
eu wont bbe happy about it.
at least tell us, before we found out about it ourself.
im lyke so nort enjoying dance at all.

kak j ;
i dunnoe why budden ur attitude towards us has change.
nort too a good wae but tuhh a bad wae.
i dunnoe wad wrong we did tuhh eu.
but if we did made a mistake anywhere, you should have told us.
nort by giving us dat shitty attitude.
ure nort making mie nn my bestfren feel good about it.
on tuesdae during nn after teh soccer match,
u hurt me alort my all ur werds.
its lyke so pedas u noe.
saket hati.
my i kept quiet, nn i tried hard nort tuhh cry.
but at last i did wenn i went out of skool after farah told mie
dat i pissed kak jannah off.
farah, being my best fren didn even notice how hurt i am about
kak j's attitude towerds mie.
nn dats wad hurt mie derr most.
haiyya...

yesterdae,
my dear boii.
im sorie...
but i need tyme off from eu.
all my thoughts about eu.
all the tyme i've waited ferr eu.
lyke wad i told eu...
physically, id un mind waitink ferr eu.
but emotionally, i dread waitink ferr eu.
i've waited fer eu fer a long-long tyme.
these stuff doesnt onlie hurts mie.
i noe, it hurts eu too.
but i need tyme tuhh think...
i lurve eu but, i juz dun feel appreciated.
i feel dat im being treated lyke a toy.
ure never there wenn i need eu.
all those small meetings before nn after skool,
is never enough ferr mie tuhh feel ur lurve.
i feel so lonely nn rejected.
ure busy wif SOCCER nn stuffs.
i never disallowed eu tuhh play...
but tuhh dat extend till eu neglect mie.
tell eu left mie alone feeling miserable.
???
dis one week is fer derr both of us tuhh think.

wads happening in 1ea is reallie saddening.
but too bad,
wad can i do about it?

toodles;taccaire.
BLUElicious -