just now , Lina asked me whether i have a cheongsam (sp?) to lend her ,and our OM heard us and gave us the wtfcuk blur face . haha , classic sia ! damn funny . Cheong said he sian look at me everyday , and that i should go away cause he prefers the new staff .hmph , forget me already ? i want to sleep . & i think Boyfie should too . you look awful Boyfie , im sorry .
i had a dream , and in that dream i waited . i sat , look out for you and waited . and in that dream , you never came . i told you rmb ? you said its weird . but now , you're telling me to wait . im on my knees , please i'll say . please . i thought when one inflict physical pain on oneself ,
one would feel better , and that he'll forget bout all the emotional pain .
how come its not working ?
much much more than anybody ever could , rmb that . i love you .i need sleep .
*clears throat* , erms im so sorry cuz , i didnt know it was ure bday yest , 23/05 .(yeah rabak per !, aper nyer cousin) so Happy Belated 18th bday Abang Zamaksyari :D like you said , legal ciggies ! (& what for !? YOU DONT SMOKE !)& im gnna see you go clubbing soon , w/o me !
& YOUR LEGAL ! and im jealous , boo T.T Happy Belated Birthday lah ! XD i'll go to next gig , i promise , i think . just make sure you give me the money for the tix :D
with just a smile , you make everything okay . i spent the whole day with Boyfie yest ! :Dand i dont feel good , i think im gnna fall sick again , soon . very very soon . sigh . i took Bio notes from my perasan tcher yest , yay can study !and my classmates loves camwhoring -.-and it seems vvv pathetic that i have very little time , its gnna be June soon :Sand my first paper is in Oct . and like all little brothers , my brother is trying to annoy me . aiya ! okie bye .
for you , a thousand times over . i saw Naufal & Hasyir/Hasif (i didnt know which twin that was) ,and Naufal doesnt really have that cool tattoo on his neck , lucky for him cause i think i'll kill him if he does . hah ! im tired & i think im gonna fall sick vvv soon . my head nearly killed me at work today ,cause work as usual was fatiguingly horrible :S i think if i can i'll most probably hibernate for two weeks hahahaha . i wanna go schooooooooooooooooooooooooooool D: i want i want ! i realie wish i could go to school D:and thats on the very top of my wishlist now , AND i dont have a wishlist ! THIS . IS . DEPRESSING ! *starts crying*i feel like camwhoring , hahahaha Boyfie ?
& im tired and i wanna study .
i wanna stay at home all day and do nothing but study .
kay im feeling stressed already , and ive got no time .
how sad ? i want nobody nobody but you ! *clap clap*hahahahaha ! XD & omg , the LG ARENA's fxcking cool ! i miss Aisyieeeeeee D:
i dont know whats wrong with me ,
one moment im fine , the next moment im not .
i'll feel super sucky and then i'll feel the stupid stabbing pain in my heart .
its stupid . i feel stupid .
or maybe just disgusted , disgusted with myself .
theres fcuking loads of what-ifs and its bothering me D:

aww , i cant rmb since when i looooooove looking at wedding photos ,
but i can rmb i'll stare at these photos vvvvv long whenever i see them .
awww , Boyfie ! i wanna get married ! hahahahaha ! haha , okay no , random seh .
okie maybe i just wanna learn how to take nice photos , or even better , nice wedding photos !
ahh okay okay , i know short break short break . im on short break !
bye .
& i couldnt sleep last night , was bothered about something .
cant figure out what .
get well soon Boyfie D:
dont be sick too long kays , i'll worry myself sick .
in order to succeed this year , ive set a goal for myself . i realised that when i was in school , i didnt had an aim , a goal in which i seriously thought through . i knew now , that i should have set an aim the moment i first step into my sec school , or latest by sec 3 , but i didnt . my general aim was to pass (not with flying colours) , and to get into a polytechnic and into any diploma course that im eligible for . and haha , thnks to my simple mindset , i didnt get into any -.- im not gonna repeat my mistakes again this year , and start all over next year , cause im required to take all of my 7 subj all over again if i fail again this year , and im so not looking forward to that . ive set my target , and i know what course im seriously interested in , and i'll study hard . i really have to . someone plsplspls slap me if i dont . i really have to make it this time . & i know ive gotta stop my ramblings and start studying . so , maybe i'll be on hiatus , or maybe just a short break , cause ive got to grab any opportunity i get , which is not alot , to study . & im still considering whether i should go for the picnic on Sunday , cause im seriously lazy , and i rather sit at home and read thru my Bio/Chem notes while resting . ohmygod , i seriously need to study . can someone get me something that will electrify (or whatever that word is) me whenever im lazy ? i know some must be thinking , 'mcm faham jer budak nie' knowing what a lazy person i am , but im seriously serious (?!!!) . theres a saying , failure before success , but i definitely wont achieve success if i dont work on it . so , okay im gonna mug now . bye :D
omg Renny , rmb this ? we pranked Ish that day , hahaha !i hate how my phone and laptop freaking messed up , with my photos and documents scattered all over the place . and i cant arrange them properly cause i cant find my phone's usb cause i dont know where the hell i put my laptop bag and cause im lazy to arrange and also to look for bag for my usb . can someone do it for me ? pretty pls *pouts* and i realised i didnt use my thumbdrive at all , and its making me unhappy cause its a waste of money . okay gnna steal notes from bio tcher soon . & ive yet to figure out the modes on my computer cause theres three . okay i think im gnna sit infront of this electronic device all night and figure things out .
& im in Ishyy's much-missed friends list :D
*jumps around* YAY ! can time travel a little wee bit faster ? cause i wanna get my Os done and over with , cause i wanna go to school even though its scares me seeing all my other friends stressed out over school BUT imagining waiting till next April ! omfg .
and im seriously irritated when Ibu text me everyday after work , asking if im otw home , oh my its bad enough you dont allow me work at night , and its fine when you text at night , but texting me at 7pm in the evening asking me whether im otw home !? its getting on my nerves and its also a waste of my 5cents to just reply you with a yes or no . cant you just wait till i get home ? you'll then know the answer to ure questions lah ! and im so tired of you nagging non-stop at me , you think i wanna purposely do something stupid you'll frowned on and get nagged ? uhhh no ? ugh , im getting pissed over stupid minor things again . grr !
& i got petty over Boyfie's stupid theories cause they scare me .
i miss Boyfie badly D:
aahhhhh , Andy Ali just texted me !
Adlin Sabrinaaaaaa , rmb him ? hahaha .
& err , shut up i know i dont look like my mum D:
a day late but , Happy Belated Mummy's day :D
heh Ibu , i know ive been a bad daughter , im rude , and i dont always listen to you , i always make you worry till you told me you might suffer from hypertension cause of me , i always make you buy stuffs for me , stuffs i dont need , and make you waste money ,i always wake up late , dont make my bed , dont eat when i have to , and fall sick all the time , and i always scream at you when you come into my room without knocking the door (privacy seh !) , and i always cause you to get nagged by Ayah , till you can go deaf (but ive apologised for that) . i know even the slightest 'ahhh !/ehh !/ohh !' directed at you is a sin , but i cant promise i'll stop doing that , cause im only human and that nobody is perfect . but i'll promise i'll try to behave , and pass my maths and science this year , cause you said thats the best present i can ever give you . and i'll help you clean the house more , heh . and cook too if you want me to T.T i love you Ibu :D & jgn risau , i still rmb the saying , syurga di bawah telapak kaki Ibu :DAND that i wont go to heaven ever if Ibu wont forgive me , so , i'll seek for forgiveness before i die . & i better start apologising to everyone ive offended before its too late , cause i might die tmr :S erms , okay my post bcame crappy .i wanna go to the picnic , but i wanna rest at home ! i wanna sleep in on a Sunday !
but i miss Sak & Ry & Lina & Shai !
& Cassie and Chloe might be going to , which makes me wanna go !
and i shouldnt have took Camelia by Irwansyah from Shai ,
cause that song is sad , very sad . its a vvvv cb song too , but its more to sad .
ahh okay whatever bye :D
& the malay drama , Cintaku Saerah is damn sad , i cried when i watched it (????!!!!!) .
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OH MY GOD ! I FOUND THIS AT GEE's blog ,
and i burst out laughing , fcuking funny , reminds me of school last year !
; now;assignments turn back to secondary school;topic>research>modifications>layout>final layout no colourscheme because year 1 is all about gray scale images and production.all this bring me back to mr sharin's art lessons where i always draw about eyes .and all he says is that "this is the last time i'm seeing you drawing this". and finally i started on flowers throughout sec 4. he's so funny. and i miss him. "you want to get attention during o'level;just bring this pencil and even the examiners will wanna use it'' remember it meera?with his face not smiling.i wanna see him :( . and you also "present" his mom with his colourpencil.and we stick notes at his car to say that we are not vanderlising at his whiteboard:))).i love it:) and remember the markers i like?i bake you pissa:}muffinz.ozmoziz.kenric is pregnent.miget.making merchendises for pregnent kenric.and still worrying for his broken head at the chemistry lab:}}}}}haha.miss those days."i wann to back to school!!!"(kicking and pulling the school fence)haha.that was loads of fun.okay;you no say that before.i go do my homework wait i need to do the hocky pocky at my lecture theater.haha
; art lessons with Mr Sharin (my fave teacher !) , the HUGE PENCIL he had , and his straight-stoned face , he claiming we "vandalised his car/whiteboard" and threatening to report us to Mr Thina so we'll get suspended . and the markers ! he said it was his Mum's bday that day ,
so i wished her , and gave her Mr Sharin's fcuking expensive colour pencils as a present . and rmb ! he said he couldnt stay back for art srp ? and that he said his wife would lock him out of the house , and that if he wore the same clothes to school the next day , we should know why . and rmb , we assumed his wife was pregnant and just gave birth , cause Mr Sharin look damn tired and that he smelled like babies ? rmb he told us that penguin and the sampan joke ? and that his niece asked him whether Winnie The Pooh was male or female ? hahhahahah ! & i miss him too , i want my canvas back ! & i still owe him his blue colour pencil cause i made it damn short when i used it for my colour scheme !
; Bio & Chem lessons with Mdm Lung (she's my fave too !) , Gee stealing her markers , cause she LIKE it , she can buy it but she chose to steal it cause you LIKE it , & cher has difficulty pronouncing the letter S . she told us she can bake Muffingz ! and diffuzion and ozmozis !
; Kenric , has midgets as parents , him being pregnant cause hes cranky all the time , designing clothes and making garlic perfumes for Kenric , and him and Saleem being gay cause their together all the time , and not forgetting when he and Daniel Lee had the stupid fight and a cylinder/test-tube broke on his head , and all of us freaked out when we saw blood ! and we got scolded for being concern . stupid Kenric ! & oh the wedding posters we designed !!! garlic wine ! hahahahahaha !
; night studies ! there was no night studies during Ramadhan , and nobody informed us , and you desperately wanted to go to school , till you pulled the fence outside school , screaming ,
' I WANNA GO SCHOOL !'
; Miss Swan & Little Britain ! and the fighter video ! we keep talking bout it in school rmb ?
the hockey-pockey ! hahahahhaa , damn funny !
and dont forget the songs , bout Ku-Ku-Kudis-Kudis ! and many many more !
hahaha Ish loves writing songs ! hahaha , funny lah .
& omigod , Gee's tagboard ! funny !
okay , i miss school !
& Ish , Renny & Gee !
familiar skin right ? messed up the skin again , and i cant be bothered to figure out whats wrong .
and very lazy to go make up new codes . so thank god , i got the old codes . omg , i seriously need to stop fiddling around . & thnks Haq and Navin for being good pool teachers haha . Haq i seriously want my Milo Dinasour/Godzilla ! Jalan Kayu pls ? i dont like this skin . ahhh ! makes me wanna delete my blog , haiya !
found this is Saangeetha's blog .
" irsyad;-i miss you and your rubbish.
meera;-you're sweet too
-i miss you and your rubbish too.
renny;-i miss you and mimi.haha "
awww , Gee is so sweet .
& hahaha , mimi ! Renny's bestfriend !
she intro-ed it to us hahaha .
*nudges Ish , Renny & Gee* and whines , 'I WANT MUDPIE !'
crap , i rmb-ed the hilarious mudpie craze . and posters ! dont forget the posters !
i seriously miss school now , great .
OH FCUK NO , CRAMP ~ !!!!
& my heart fcuking aches laaaahhhh !
okay goodbye .
caught Jangan Tegur with Ibu & brothers a few days back , and yeah i gotta admit that Jangan Tegur is way better than Congkak & Jgn Pandang Belakang , so people go watch it . but the sound effects suck real bad though , hah ! and my uncle passed away Friday morning and its very sad and unexpected , cause Ibu said he was completely healthy and free of diseases , and that its very unexpected that someone so healthy can just leave just like that . i feel so sorry & sad for my cousins D: like Ibu said , one doesnt have to be sick to pass away , and that scared the shit out of me , cause i can die in the next 5mins , oh my ! hopefully not , cause theres still LOADS that i wanna do . & i think i better start doing good things , so that even if i go to hell , i wont suffer so bad , okay thats so redundant . kays , i think im typing crap . & im sick again , hah thats not new am i right ? cause im always sick . & no doctor , i do not have swine flu . and i got to meet Kasyir today , that adorable kid i absolutely adore (?!!!) :D
haha , okay bye .