Ameeeeeeeeey ♥

hello .
schools been fine today , but some minor-minor stuffs
do reallie make me go sour for awhile .
but hey , im okay :]
pls lah classmate , im sick of ure stuck-up antics ,
like i said whatever you do and say to me or others ,
dont matter .. it just shows how IMMATURE you are .
and im not gonna waste my time talking or explaining this misunderstanding
to someone IMMATURE . not only am i gonna waste my time , saliva and get myself tired ,
im very sure , nothing i say will go through ure pea-size brain .
and btw , if you said that i cried just to gain sympathy ,
then , i can say that to you today .
i saw you cryink last night during night study and today in english class today ,
if im a b*tch like how ure acting , i could have just gone to ure place and said right in ure face
that you should reflect on ureself and that you ureself are tryink to gain sympathy .
but luckily , im nice and even if idk why ure cryink , im sure things are hard ,
thats why ure cryink and it'll dampened ure mood even more if i went there
and act all bitchy . im not just sayink and not doink it cause i dont dare ,
pls .. you know im no longer that small kid you can push around and
that i dare to say or do anitink i want cause i know whats the consequences are
and that im brave enough to speak up for it .
and ya , stop insisting that majority of the class hates me , cause
all you know , the majority doesnt hate me but hates you instead .
dont be so sure of ureself and ure mouth cause im pretty sure im much more nicer
to you even if im noisy and that MAJORITY of the class hates you more than me .
stop pointing fingers at me , when you ureself aint no better .
you know ureself best , so reflect on ureself , im in no position to judge ,
but judging from what i see in school on how you behave and treat people ,
i know ure much-much-much worst that me . in ure face !

like ive said , schools been fine , but due to my classmate who
seriously have nutink better to do and who doesnt have any manners ,
which reallie reflect on her upbringing , reallie make me frown .
but now , im no longer gonna waste my time thinking bout ure immature acts
and that you know whatever you say reflects greatly on ureself and that ure
wasting ure brain cells and saliva talking to me .
furthermore , i didnt do anitink to you & i dont think im doing anitink wrong now .
two can play the game , and if you think you can blog bout me labelling me and
Saangeetha barbarians , i can blog bout you too . and pls ,
go opened up the dictionary and check up the meaning of barbarian ,
cause i dont think im behaving like a uncivilised person like you are .

and im reallie disappointed that Malay Dance are not performing
for the teacher's day concert duer to shortage of time and also
unsupportive co-members .
note : if you arent willing to sacrifice ure time and effort ,
jsut say so right in oure faces . mind you , we might not be like the other seniors
last year who are fierce but , we tried to give you guys face and kept
quiet bout some stuffs .. but if ure gonna give us faces and talk crap
that brought down our hopes , i suggest you wait till all of us are gone and than
start showing ure attitudes next year cause , we are STILL here and we're not blind .
and its okay , Syakila . i'll just treat the Grand Dinner Concert Performance
as the last performance for me . i dont blame you for anitink okie ?
and yes , insyaallah if theres another chance , we'll jump for it .

okays , this is the part where i talk about myself .
this past few days , i feel much-much better ,
knowing that my friends are here to cheer me up and
also to wipe my tears . reallie , im okay .
but last night and also some other nights & days in school ,
i dont reallie feel that im fine and that im lyink when i asy im okay .
when i laugh , i feel like im laughing so fake . and when i smile ,
i know im everybody can see its just a smile that im forced out .
idk why im feeling that way , maybe my self-esteem is just crushed
by some people who laughed at my face when i teared .
and maybe , my self-confidence is just not strong like how it used to be .
or maybe , im just feeling disappointed with myself for everything that
ive done and the hurt that ive caused and that im forced to live with
all this regrets and knowing that i can do nothing about it .
plus , im very tired . and im panicking cause of my Os .
lets summarise , i can just say ,
im okay but im not . does that even make sense ?
i guess yeah , cause thats how im feeling now .

btw , thanks AISYAH for the chocs .
youre such a true friend and i must admit i love you alot :]
hehs .

so i guess thats all for now ,
should go nap for awhile before getting ready for night study .
bbye ; I Love You .