Ameeeeeeeeey ♥

SAGITTARIUS - The Happy-Go-Lucky One
Good-natured optimist. Doesn't want to grow up (Peter Pan Syndrome). Indulges self. Boastful. Likes luxuries and gambling. Social and outgoing. Doesn't like responsibilities. Often fantasizes. Impatient. Fun to be around. Having lots of friends. Flirtatious. Doesn't like rules. Sometimes hypocritical. Dislikes being confined - tight spaces or even tight clothes. Doesn't like being doubted. Beautiful inside and out.

hello .
despite sleeping very late yest listening to someone sleep on the phone ,
i woke up early but still late this morning . was suppose to wake up at 5.30am
and get to school by 6.30am but woke up at 6.10am after repeatedly pressing the
snooze button . finally woke up and showered and got ready to go to school .
got to school and slack for awhile taking all our costumes and then waited
for the latecomers and then boarded the bus that brought us to the
Grand Copthorne Hotel . i went gugugaga over the hotel at first , but after staying there from 8am-1pm , im very sure the hotel's has too many flaws . first of all , no dustbin T.T , we had difficulty throwing our rubbish . second , the food was disgusting , okay maybe thats the only food you serve at our school budget , but seriously , was that food even fit for humans ? i feel that its for stray cats down the street . lols , but im there only for rehearsals and not as a staying guest , so i may not know how the service is cause from what i see , the waiter was nice :]
so rehearsals just now was #%^*##^%*&&($*@ !
; everything was fine at first but my tamborine just had to slip from my hands ,
and i was so panicky on stage that i forget that i shouldnt try to grab
my tamborine back . and i was so jittery after that i forgot my steps and i went too fast than the others , i almost cried after that , but i didnt . afterall its only the rehearsals and i maybe i can do something to overcome my stage fright . hahas , Abang Izwan's really cool today , he made our hair into something reallie nice , even though it caused damage to my hair , ure like the best instructor i ever had :]]]]] teh first instructor to talk to me as if im his age and also his friend , and also the first to goof around with us , you're fun . had lunch after that , and thnks to Abng Izwan he bought us can drinks which saved us from drinking cold dirty plain water :] had lunch and then changed and then boarded the bus with contemp dance like before and also with the kompang boys . i swear today was fun but boring at times cause we had to wait like reallie long for our turn to rehearse . but yeahs , its fun :] upon reaching school , saw this gold bunga mangga which really excites me , tsk i know . yeahs , waited for Farid and then left school before him , leaving him to catch up with me , Farah , Suzanna . accompanied him to eat at ljs rivervale mall and then went home . so yeahs , went home and slept like a pig after that , was very tired . ouh ya , HAPPY BIRTHDAY NURI :]

its not that i dont wanna be truthful to you , no .

im confused myself . i dont know what i want ,

i dont know what i should do . yeahs , im moved by youre sincerety ,

ure patience to wait for me and also youre unconditional love that remains unchanged .

im touched i swear .

but i seriously have no idea what i should do or say to you now ,

cause , i dont wanna hurt you by rejecting you again and , i so dont wanna

lie to myself by accepting your love cause its unfair to the both of us .

reallie , i have feelings for you ,

but like i said , its not that strong , it wont last .

what if , my feelings just fly away again like that ?,

i cant bear to hurt you again for the 5th/6th time .

i dont wanna lie to myself and also you . listen to my what ifs ,

it wont make you happy cause you know it wont make me happy either .

i really dont know what i want .

so , time will tell okays , im sorry to make you wait .

just dont put too much hope on me /:

i swear im sorry .

bye .