Ameeeeeeeeey ♥

hello .
school's like normal & ive been coming home late
to complete homework with irsyad and renny .

and ya , i feel that school sucks nowadays
especially when you have biased / racist classmates ..
till now im afraid to speak up whenever im in doubt cause
someone may just say ,
' shut up la bitch ! '
yeahs , even though i tried thinking positively like the ,
bitch is a female dog and dog barks and barks are found on trees
and trees are part of nature and nature is beautiful and so am i thing ,
i just cant help but think alot about these stuffs .
i cant stand some classmates who i only know just this year
who are biased against me . like seriously , we just met and
you already act like as if i did something bad to you .
i have no sense of belonging at all ..
in addition , dance practise suck this year ,
now , i dont feel belong in my much-loved cca as i feel that
our cca now revolves only around them .
imagine yourself being a last-year senior and you get cut off from the
year-book phototaking .. i dont mind actually , if i was informed about this .
but i wasnt inform about this at all , so am i still part of the group ?
and the cutting down of dancers from 15 to 10 suck ,
that i go so frustrated whenever i think about it .
i dont remember being this pressured
when the seniors was still with us last year ..
now , i dont even look forward to dancepractise like i used to .
what the hell .
so , currently im very pessimistic and moodless and my
self-esteem is really low .. so much of me telling cousin not
to let people's opinion bring me down .
all the courage to built up my confidence through the first 14 years of my life
goes to waste just like that when i turn 15 .
nobody cares anyway so whatever .
this feeling suck .

and i miss farah . alot .