Ameeeeeeeeey ♥

its tyme tuhh bbe a bigg gerl noww..
& bigg gerls dunn cryyy..

guess im nort datt bigg.
coz at derr moment as im typing out dis post,,
tears are forming in myy eyes.
guess im nort strong as i think i am,,
coz i broke down durink srp todayyy.
& derr tcher was veryy worried about mwe.
''are youu okayyy? are youu crying?
are youu in pain? stomach pain? heart pain?
wadds wrong?
wann tuhh share wif mr ong?
are youu okayy??''
& i just replied.
''nutink cherr..""
i didn do my srp werksheet..
coz derr tcher lett mwe rest,,
denn he ask farah tuhh take care of mwe,,
in case i jump down from derr skool building.
no larhhh ehhhs,,
i'll just swallow 20 panadols.
or even more.
i swallowed 2 w/o apparent reason dat dayyy,,
so i'll bbe gladd tuhh swallow 18 more next tyme.
im soooo depressed okayyye.
i saww youuu nn i wann tuhh sayy hi.
but i jus carnnn,,
i jus dunn dare..
i couldn even bring myself tuhh smile at youu.
instead i jus follow derr floww my frenns are in nn laugh
along wif demm.
i wann go up tuhh youu nn sayy i miss youu alortt.
but i dunn have derr courage.

i find myself changing nowadayyys.
i do things i dunnwann tuhh..
i irritate my frenns.
i dont do my werkk..
except ferr art.
im gettink thinner..
& weaker.
i get tired easilyyyy..
& maybbe i'll even bbe lyke last year,,
wenn i get sort off fits every tyme.
maybbe i'll even bbe in pain everytyme lyke last year..
maybbe i will lose my appetite again lyke dis year nn beginning
of dis year..
& maybbe i'll just bcum crazyyy nn depressed bcoz of youu.

IMISSYOUU!!
IMISSYOUU!!
IMISSYOUU!!

i mayy seem strongg..
nn ive been holding back derr tears,,
ferr sooo long
till noww,,
i jus carn help it anymore.
im crumbling.
& tears just fall from dis eyes even wenn i dunn wann tuhh.

& nana will just sayyy..
''my giler.. pls stopitt.''
HAIYARHHHHHS!!!
i carnnn as much as i wann tuhh.

puhlease.PHULEASE!!
im begging youuuu.
tok tuhh mwe..
even if youu wont sayy you miss mwe tooo.
tok tuhh mwe & lett mwe bbe who i used tuhh bbe again.
puhlease.

&& youuuu..
ferr goodness sake.
just patch up wif herr larhhh ehhhs,,
ure makin mwe lyke a fool.
uve hurt mwe enoughhh.,,
& im nort strong tuhh see youu around wif herr.

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