Ameeeeeeeeey ♥

im lyke soooo sadd.
& confused.
nn i feel lyke kicking nn throwing things around.
i feel lyke pulling out my hair.
i feel lyke crying
but dis tears just wont fall..
maybbe its bcoz i cried too much
dats its all used up..
i jsut feel sooo useless
dat i'll bbe stuck in dis situation TWICE.
& summore im lyke derr third partyy or rather forth.
im suppose tuhh bbe helping herr but
i fell ferr hym lyke sooo long ago
& yett i onlie dared tuhh tell hym my
feeling about 3 weeks ago.
& noww im so confused..
maybbe i should just ferget about hym nn
give hym up tuhh herr..
maybbe i should just do datt.
im feeling so guiltyyy dat noww im trying
tuhh put myself in her shoes
& tryyy fucking hard tuhh ferget about hym.
hym. my best frenn tuhh at least my everytink.
he's my everytink..
3 years we've been close
& yett its onlie noww datt i dared tuh tell hym,,
maybbe its just too little too late..
too badd mira.
its ur fault.
its my fault.
yes its my fault..
wadd tuhhh do.
im just soooo veryy sorie tuhhh herr
datt i just feeling lyke knocking myself in derr head
& tell myslef tuhh wake up.
im sooo sorry.

& i noe.
I SCREWED UP DAT FCUKING ORAL.
i was lyke a-ahhh-ahhh all derr wayyy.
i just didn noe how tuhh put my ideas into sentences
tuhh answer derr tcher.
lyke omfg.
i read fine xcept ferr some messed-up werds,,
but ouuuh-welll,,
wadd cann i do?
i just carnn possiblyy rewind everytink lyke
wadd merdina saed.
im just hoping ferr derr best ferr lc nn oso derr writen
exam.

(: