Ameeeeeeeeey ♥

FUCK.FUCK.FUCK.

early in the morning eu make mie angry already.
eu saed i carn keep secrets???.
where the bloody hell did eu get dat.
trust eu tuhh be my own brother who would tell lies about his own sister.
dasar sialan nyer jantan.
eu were the one who carn keep secrets.
eu ferget already isit?
wen i was younger...
i kept a diary.
sumhow he noe the code tuhh teh keypad dat lock the diary.
n he claimed he can keep secrets.
he got mie into trouble wen he told my mum.
FUCK!!! i got a bashing from dad.
n he didn tok tuhh mie fer two months.
n now eu can tell our cuzzin dat i carn keep secrets.
everytink i told him ; he told mum.
n i got into trouble.

not onlie dat.
did he ever respect mie as his older sister?
no. everydae w/o fail.
ader jer nak saket kan hati org.
but wad can i do.
kalau nak ikut kan marah ; dah kener belasah dah ngan aku.
budden i'll juz get myself into trouble.
too add tuhh the problems. mum side wif him.
tak habes2 nak sebelah kan anak dier.
den ; wad about mie.???
did eu even care. eu heard wad he saed tuhh mie?
im merely defending myself. is dat wrong?
i didn even sae anitink rude tuhh him.
everytyme he made mie angry wif dat sickening stupid look on his face,
i juz wanted tuhh go charging into his direction n hit him.
pull his hair,pinch him... anitink i can do tuhh let out all the anger.
alll the anger yg dah sekian lamer dipendam.

eu're alwaes humiliating mie.
dun eu have any sense of shame?
kalau kau tak tahu malu pon.
kakak kau tahu malu.
SIALAN NYER JANTAN.

not onlie dat he creat story tuhh humiliate mie.
he doesnt even have a sense of respect.
wen im toking tuhh *him on the phone ; he told mie tuhh shudup?.
where the hell are your manners?
???
FUCK!!!

he once told mie he hated der fact dat he have a sister lyke mie.
i noe ; takkan siblings takder gaduh kan.
budden i olwaes let him win all the fights.
or if not i'll juz stop.
wad the hell does he wan?
of coz i'll stand up fer myself if someone disrespect mie.
n wad did he sae?
HE HATED MIE.!!!
excuse mie, mister. I HATE EU MORE!!!
i wish i've never ask my mum fer a younger brother.
dats wad my parents told mie.
wen i was younger ; i pester dem fer a sibling.
I WISH I DIDN EVER WISH FER DAT!!!
if i noe i'll be blogging here.
wif tears in my eyes. and all teh anger i have now.
i wouldn have ask fer a brother.
REGRETS!!!
i carn turn back tyme.
it hurts mie wen he shouted at mie in public dat he hated mie.
i went back home n cried the whole dae.
but did he apologise? NO!!!NO!!!

even thou he didn apologise... i fergive him willingly.
n alwaes made up wif him.
wad more does he want???
WAD MORE DO EU WANT???
org bersabar jgn nak pijak kepaler...
eu ask mie tuhh sabar??? wen im not respected as an OLDER SISTER???
wad the hell do eu want???
STOP!STOP!STOP!...
stop torturing mie wif dat hurtfull werds of urs.
plsplspls!!!
WAD MORE DO EU WANN???
WAD??? TELL MIE!!!

dun have tuhh make mie feel so FUCK UP till lyke dis!!!

all i ask fer is tuhh be respected.
i duncare even if eu hate mie.
i juz wann tuhh be respected...
IS DAT A CRIME???!!!

toodles ; taccaire
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